BETA IN....

1st official Beta....


196!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank YOU JESUS! Giving HIM all the GLORY!

Next beta Wednesday then 1st u/s 16th YIPPEE!

Chat with Embryologist..

No, this is not one of my embryos BUT, it looks like most of my embryos. All 6 of them are blastocysts. Since my transfer is a mere 13 days from now-The embryologist called yesterday to discuss the embryos and which ones we wanted to thaw. Naturally, we want to implant 2 so will be thawing the straw with 2 in it. In this straw are 2 5 day blasts-one graded 4AB and one 4BB. These are excellent quality. If you would like to know more about how they grade embryos-GO HERE.

The other 4 are also excellent quality and graded either a 3 or 4. There are 3 in one straw and one 6 day blast in the other straw.

She said their clinic has an 80-90% success rate on thawing. I am already confident that both little sweeties will survive the thaw. If not, she will thaw the straw with 1 in it.

I also got more info on the egg donor mom today from my actual donor couple. For some reason all along I thought she was 24 or 26. She was only 22 when she donated her eggs. That being said, the embryologist says it is very likely that the transfer will work. She explained that the age of the egg donor is what they go on to give a success rate for pregnancy. If I were using a 40 year olds eggs (aka my own) with the same grading of 4AA or 4AB-the chances of the transfer working would go down considerably.

I am so thankful to the Lord tonight for my unselfish donor couple. They will never know the joy & love they have given us. I told her how nervous, excited and anxious I was about the upcoming transfer & she shared this verse with me... I will cling to it especially since it was sent from her through God to me.

So, DO NOT FEAR, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

$94.50

The grand total for all meds NOT paid by our insurance for our upcoming FET cycle. Not bad EH?

SWEEEEEEEET.....

They will be here tomorrow! Last BCP "officially" down the hatch!

DUE DATES...5 weeks

Yes, I realize I'm a bit insane to be figuring this out already but too late, I did, I'm trying to plan EVERY DETAIL LOL! I mean I just don't have enough to stress and worry about. What can I say, I'M A PLANNER!!

I went HERE to get my due dates.

So if all goes perfect and I have my August 11 transfer...

April 29th-SINGLETON

April 7th-TWINS (what I'm secretly routing and praying for-don't tell my hubby)

March 10th-TRIPLETS

Please Lord just give me whatever children you want as long as they are healthy and I at least have one. I promise to fight for other frozen embies, raise awareness and tell my story as a testimony to the beauty of Embryo Adoption. Thank you Lord for this wonderful opportunity!

I have made my reservations in L.A. today! I found a FABULOUS room with an OCEAN VIEW! I figure if I have to lay flat for 24-I may as well have a beautiful view right?

5 weeks from today, I'll be pregnant!! Off to acupuncture!

Big GUNS...

Well, I woke up this morning with my bleeding heavier-almost like a light period with cramps and everything. Even after taking 2 BCP's a day for 2 days, apparently my body KNOWS it's time to cycle and is fighting the BCP's with all its might!

Even though it is the day before the 4th, my Dr. in L.A. promptly called me back and called in "THE BIG GUNS" a higher dose BCP and told me to take one right away and one right before bed. One in the morning and one at night for 3 days until this bleeding goes away totally. I took the first pill and have had no bleeding since then-YAY! Seems so bizarre to be "on the pill" at 39. Makes me want to put back on that argyle sweater and get my "mall bangs" on from the 80's!

I was nervous to get the prescription filled because one of my friends husbands is the pharmacist at WALLY WORLD and no one here knows of our plans. AND in the sicks there is nowhere else to go! AND I'M PARANOID! I'll admit it! I am in the mid-west and here is a prescription being called in from L.A. I'm sure he wondered "hmmmmmmmm...."

My acupuncture was phenomenal as always-so relaxing! We are leaving tomorrow to spend time with family and then heading on a motorcycle ride all day on Sunday.

May you all have a blessed 4th!

Schedule...Things moving!

The donor mom and I both sent the Dr. a personal email yesterday early morning regarding the lack of progress. GUESS WHAT? That got someones REAR IN GEAR because by 9am I had TONS of information that I needed. Including the fact that I had to get my own attorney to draw up a contract between us and the donors. SO, my friend JEN helped me CALM DOWN and CHILLAX. I got everything done.

My schedule looks like this..

July 16 Last BCP

July 21 Start Meds, sono, blood work

July 28 Sono, blood work

August 4 Final Sono, blood work

August 10 Fly out to L.A., meet Dr.

August 11 Transfer the baby embies

August 13 Fly home

I know, it looks easy but I am kind of scared. I am going alone but I have 2 friends out there who will be meeting with me and taking me to my transfer so that is cool!

I have been having some bizarre spotting. I am on continuous BCP's and I was normally suppose to start my period yesterday. So I called the clinic and the nurse told me to take 2 BCP's for 3 days to stop the insanity. So last night I took 2 and still had some spotting this a.m. I hope this doesn't screw things up. I am calling again today to see if there is anything more I should do.

Meantime, My attorney here should have all paper work ready for us and the donor couple today. The donor couple has chosen not to get their own attorney. So our attorney will draft a letter that all parties are in agreement and sent it to L.A. and that part should be DONE!

The donor couple is working on getting the 6 embies to L.A. I should know more about that soon also. It's getting SO CLOSE! 6 weeks 5 days and I'll be pregnant!

Last Pack?

Hoping and praying this will be my last pack of these for the next 10 months or so! I took the first pill last night! I am so excited! I should be getting my official "FET Schedule" this week! I am thinking I will take my last BCP around July 15 or 16.

Acupuncture is going fantastic! It is so relaxing and wonderful really! I'm still going twice a week.We are praying that God will help speed along the legal paperwork that needs to take place to get the 6 embies moved to L.A. and that it will happen quickly and smoothly. The clinic is sent all paperwork to the donors yesterday. I'm a worry wart! I know God's got this covered but I will feel so much better once they are in L.A. & even BETTER when I am there to join them!

YAY!

The doctor called this evening with GOOD NEWS! He says since my cysts give me absolutely no pain or problems we have 2 choices... Leave them alone and proceed with the transfer or right before the transfer I can endure about 3 seconds of intense pain and have them drained. I have time to think about it. The important thing is that we can MOVE FORWARD with our August transfer date-no ROAD BLOCK!

Now, the next step is just getting all the legal paper work done and getting the embies to the clinic in a TIMELY FASHION! The donor couple has to do most of this since the embies are in their name. So, my prayer for tonight is that the paper work moves forward smoothly with no snags & the donor couple is comforted as they let go. He assured me that he or his nurse would be calling me no later than Monday to give me an update on the situation.

From the very beginning of this process I have prayed that if God does not want this to happen-make it obvious! And this has been nothing more than one miracle after another! I must continue to keep my focus on HIM-the true creator of life and all will go according to HIS plan and purpose!

I have my next acupuncture on Monday-3 times next week. I'm hoping that may help decrease the cyst size also. Something else bizarre-I ALREADY FEEL PREGNANT AND I KNOW I'M NOT? No, I'm not nuts, just being honest! Until next time.....

WELCOME TO OUR INFERTILITY JOURNEY!

I decided to start this anonymous blog to VENT and gain support for our new journey through infertility....while at the same time respecting my hubs wishes to keep it PRIVATE...MEN!

Heres the SCOOP on us so far... Me-late 30's, DH-40's. We have adopted some precious children. We chose adoption because we had no funds for IVF 7 years ago when we got our infertility news. WELL...things have changed and my TIME IS RUNNING OUT!

My GYN told me a few weeks ago that unless I was pregnant soon, it would be in my best interest to remove the rest of my female "parts." I had honestly lost ANY DESIRE to get pregnant many years ago. THAT IS, UNTIL SHE THREATENED TO TAKE IT AWAY. The thought of losing any chance of every having a baby with my DH whom I adore was devastating.
We have MANY things stacked against us...

• DH-zero sperm count azoospermia
• I have only 1 ovary
• Our age

But we have one BIG THING in our favor.....JESUS!

So, let me tell you where we started. We knew 7 years ago when we saw our RE (reproductive endocrinologist) right after we were married that I had blocked tubes from endo and then quickly found out DH had zero sperm SO. We knew where to start this time.

He saw a urologist last week , did another semen analysis which again resulted in zero. He then had FSH lab drawn which came back normal just yesterday. If the FSH is HIGH, this indicates a 95% chance that no sperm is being produced. If it's normal, there is a good chance the Urologist can extract some by doing a testicular biopsy. He will have this procedure done next Tuesday-HAPPY CINCO de MAYO honey! He even asked me to ask the nurse if he could ride his HARLEY to and from the procedure-GET REAL PEEPS! I am on BCP's to regulate my cycle and just waiting DH's results to move on to the next step in this journey.

So, we are praying for sperm at this point and also IVF & considering possible EA (embryo adoption) as an option. Any feedback, prayers, POSITIVE IVF stories or anything else to lift my spirits would be SO APPRECIATED!