Monday, November 30, 2009

8w2d SONO!

This is our gorgeous little miracle at 8w2d!! You can see the little arm and leg buds sticking out! SO PRECIOUS! His/Her little heart beat was 174bpm-right where it should be! A beautiful sight!

I have been SO SICK and TIRED! I guess my body is manufacturing the placenta right now-making me one exhausted MAMA! I have fought nausea & vomiting except while I am sleeping. I have had very little thought of miscarriage since being so sick-I KNOW the baby is okay as sick as I have been so the sickness is comforting.

It does make it difficult to be a patient mama & prepare for Christmas with the 6 little ones but God has given me the strength and stamina I need to get through & I know he will continue. I also have a horrible cold and am used to taking cold medicine. NO DOPE FOR ME!!!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


YOUR PRAYERS WORKED! Jen called and ALL IS WELL with her twinkies-PRAISE THE LORD and thank you for your prayers. She is now at home resting peacefully!

I was convinced this baby was a boy until tonight.... When I puked for the first time. I was very sick with my dd when I was pregnant 20 YES 20 years ago at age 19. Since I hadn't puked yet and was just nauseous, I assumed I was having a boy. God is so funny! He's really got me confused now!

It is taking LITERALLY EVERYTHING I HAVE to cook Thanksgiving dinner as the smell of anything but toast makes me want to puke!

I am NOT COMPLAINING-just keepin' it real! I puked and right after thanked the good Lord for my blessing. Being sick reminds me that everything is okay and baby is growing wonderfully! Thank you for that constant reminder Lord.

Have a BLESSED Thanksgiving!

Prayers NEEDED!!

Just got a call from my BFF through embryo adoption-JEN.

She is on her way to be monitored at the hospital. While at her routine OB appointment today they couldn't find one of the twins heart beats on doppler but they did on sono. They were concerned about both the babes heart beats and that Baby A was not active.

Jen is so scared but at the same time, she knows these babies are Gods and that HE HAS BIG PLANS FOR THEM! She is just not ready for them to be born yet at 29w5d.

I promised her I would request prayer on my blog and keep you all informed of any developments.

Please take a moment & say a prayer for Jen, her twins, her other 5 little ones and her hubby Pat! Thank you! God Bless & HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Monday, November 23, 2009


I wanted you guys to know "the real me." I have another family blog that I just announced my pregnancy on.

THAT BLOG DOES NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS BLOG and I DON'T WANT IT TO :) Make sense? But, I wanted to share with you guys my other blog IF you are interested!

There are just some things on this blog I only want you guys to know-not particularly my IRL (in real life) friends and family that all read my other blog!

So CLICK HERE if you want to read about THE REAL ME-not the anonymous me!

I still want to share my feelings & embryo adoption experience with you guys and have also shared part of my story on my family blog. CLEAR AS MUD??? ALRIGHT THEN!!

It went well telling our parents except my mom was QUITE confused. She asked if I was having a "twin" to the donor couples baby? SAY WHAT MAMA? Twins are born at the same time out of the same womb. My MIL was the only one of the 4 to REALLY get it!

I am SUPER DUPER NAUSEOUS! Off to fix lunch and take a nap!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Meeting with THE PARENTS!

Both sets of parents are driving up for the day tomorrow. We will be telling them our wonderful news. I will be 7 weeks. They know NOTHING of our plans so I am not sure how they will react. They are all 4 in their mid seventies and I am praying this embryo adoption talk does not COMPLETELY freak them out.

This is how we will initially be telling them-with our littlest one coming out in this shirt except it is Black and our boys name is not Gavin :) And then of course we will be showing them our sonogram pictures!

HMMMM...should be an interesting day!

As for me, I am nauseous and exhausted AND THANKFUL FOR IT!

Monday, November 16, 2009


Here is our little blessing! One sweet little jewel with a perfect heart beat!
Measuring a PERFECT 6w2d old! The circle on the right is the yolk sac and the baby is the oblong part attached on the left. The head is at the top, rump at the bottom It was a surreal, emotional moment to see and hear the little heart beating! My dh was holding my hand all the while. We are SO THRILLED!! We watched and listened to the little sweetie for about 10 minutes. It was so neat!

On the way there, we drove by a lake, there was a bald eagle-THE FIRST ONE I'VE EVER SEEN IN REAL LIFE-floating above the lake. We also drove to the appointment in the first snow/blizzard of the year. It was a monumental day with God's beauty ALL around us!

We then went for a celebratory breakfast at Panera. I had a wonderful hot chocolate and a DIVINE bacon, spinach souffle. Just what the baby needed.

We have our next u/s in 2 weeks!

Praise the Lord for our sweet miracle baby!
To God be the GLORY!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

6 weeks!!

I am 6 weeks today. PRAISE THE LORD!!!

I have many symptoms I am thankful for-a sore hiney from all those PIO & delestrogen shots, an itchy rash on the rump from the shots, slight nausea, breast tenderness and expansion, bloated belly, constipation, exhaustion and just plain JOY!!

Joy that this embryo adoption really worked! Joy that I am REALLY PREGNANT!

We will know in 2 days if we have one little jewel or two in there. I am praying both are flourishing nicely! SO EXCITED for our sonogram! It's Monday at 8am.

I am on my way to shop. My VOLUPTUOUSNESS has caused me to be busting out of the 2 bras I have that fit & it's quite uncomfortable. I am heading to get some bras, basketball shoes for my son and some Christmas shopping done too!

Have a blessed weekend and I can't wait to show you pictures of the little miracles on Monday!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Old Blood? FEAR.

I had a SMIDGE of old brown blood this a.m. when I woke up. It was just in my underwear. None when I wiped & I've worn a panty liner ALL DAY and no more. What does this cause for me??

FEAR!!!!!! Fear of miscarriage, fear of a blighted ovum and much more.

It is now that I must trust in the Lord to protect my babies and not let the fear stay constant & not research anything on the internet (oops too late).

It is now that I must recite the scriptures I know over and over in my head.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. Psalm 23:4

The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. Psalm 18:2

It is now that I must comfort myself knowing that God HAS BIG PLANS FOR THESE LITTLE ONES!

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Monday, November 9, 2009


My RE doctor called to congratulate me on Friday. He said I have "solid numbers" and wished me a great pregnancy.

I had LOTS of questions for him. The first being

"CAN I STILL RIDE ON THE BACK OF OUR HARLEY?" He chuckled and said "No, you have worked too hard to get pregnant, I just don't want you bouncing around on the back of the bike."

So much for our end of the season ride and this most likely means I will be "OUT" for Sturgis next year LOL!
Also, no more 4-wheeler, go-cart OR jumping on our trampoline with the kids LOL!
I guess I never thought of all this stuff before!

I am feeling good. Just VERY TIRED, sore boobs, a smidge of nausea, constipation, frequent bathroom trips and I just FEEL bigger than I am LOL! Yesterday at church, I felt like "everyone knew I was preggers." I am paranoid, what can I say?
The PIO shots have also caused a rash on my rear end. IT ITCHES LIKE MAD! I have the choice to either continue having an itchy rear or do 3 vaginal suppositories a day which sounds like NO FUN! I really do not want to put anything up there so for now I am sticking to the shots!
I am 5 weeks 2 days already! Which means their little heart/hearts have already begun to beat. Hard to believe! God is so amazing! I will have my sono in one week! So exciting!

Friday, November 6, 2009


That's what I am doing now that I just got my 3rd beta #! It needed to be above 600~

Drumroll please......


Yippee YI YI YAY! Giving Him ALL THE GLORY!


Time to go hang up the big bag of maternity clothes I bought at Target! I was waiting for these results before I unpacked them!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Beta #2 Update

The nurse at my clinic did not seem concerned she said it was a good number and normal however they do want me to do another Beta on Friday and would like to see the number above 600. Patience, God is teaching me more patience right?

Praying my little one/ones are doing okay in there!



I am not thrilled with this number. Still waiting on the doctor to call and tell me what he thinks. I know it most likely means one of my little ones is no longer with me.

I will update after I chat with Dr.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


Has become a routine part of my EVERY DAY! I'm exhausted. Luckily, I nap when my other kids nap so that is WONDERFUL!
Nap time was VERY SPECIAL today because I woke up to THESE!!!!!! Over 2 dozen roses!!!!! They are from a couple that has a LOT to do with our embryo adoption. I will be telling you ALL about them later. My FIRST congratulatory gift-THANK YOU SO MUCH!
I decided to put these on my night stand.And these on my dressing table in my bathroom.

Another GLORIOUS day of GROWING BABIES & Friendship!!!

Can't wait for my beta results tomorrow!


Monday, November 2, 2009

3 Gifts!

  • Besides the wonderful GIFT of my great beta,

  • The second gift is 2-fold. The first part-a FLU SHOT-UGH! It was a CINCH compared to the progesterone shots. The second part of the gift was when lab tech called back to the nurse and said "WE HAVE an OB patient here that needs a flu shot." AN OB Patient? Who ON EARTH was she talking about. OH HEAVENS....LITTLE Ol' ME!

  • I HEADED TO TARJAY right after my beta and flu shot & purchased myself gift #3...

A BODY PILLOW!! I looked on-line at pregnancy pillows. They are like $50. This hot little number was $20. $10 for the pillow, $10 for the giraffe cover that's soft like butter.

Can't wait to curl up to this BAD BOY tonight... AHHHHHH!!!

Dear Lord,

Tonight I thank you for everything you have given me. I thank you for letting my "jewel/jewels" survive thus far. Father, I know that these children are truly yours and I promise I will be the best mom I can be to them and teach them all about you.

Tonight I want to say a special thank you for all the IF friends you've brought into my life. I want to pray for those hurting, still trying, on their 2ww, in limbo or suffering a loss tonight. I hurt for them tonight. Father, give them hope. Reassure them that with YOU all things are possible. AMEN.


1st official Beta....


Thank YOU JESUS! Giving HIM all the GLORY!

Next beta Wednesday then 1st u/s 16th YIPPEE!