Here's our little sweet cheeks at 20 weeks 3 days.
Hand all curled under her little chin.
They measured EVERYTHING from head to toe on our angel-even her lips!
The verdict is-she is completely perfect and 100% on track for her age!
THEN THERE'S ME....UGH!
I have been waiting to update the blog until I knew the results of my 24 hour urine test which my Dr. assured me on Tuesday would be fine. Well, NOT SO MUCH... The amount of protein last month was 160.
When I heard my Dr's voice and not the nurses on my cell Thursday during a homeschool field trip, I knew something must not be right and immediately felt anxiety and tears set in...
She said my protein had quadrupeled to 800 and there is no explanation for it. She said she was not going to call it pre-eclampsia YET. I immediately pictured myself on bed rest in the hospital for the next months while my 6 little ones struggles without me at home-being cared for by strangers. The thought of it makes me tear up and my BP go sky high.
She got me in with a urologist yesterday afternoon who said this to me "ARE YOU SURE YOU ARE AT THE RIGHT PLACE?, YOU SHOULD REALLY BE SEEING A NEPHROLOGIST." He said "I just don't know what to do with you, I will call a nephrologist friend of mine and let you know next week." ALL THIS after I waited almost 2 hours to see him. AND OF COURSE, it was 5pm and my OB office is closed by now.
SO, I called the Dr. on call and told her the situation. She just told me to chill, drink lots of water and wait until Monday on which they will promplty make an appointment for me to see a nephrologist.
ON A WONDERFUL NOTE...
God let us know that he is still in control and protecting our little girl and me by allowing my sweet husband to feel SEVERAL LARGE KICKS last night! She is an active girl, just in the last few days! I LOVE feeling her move, it's just the neatest thing EVER! Trusting HIM all the way!
I LOVE The way THE JUNK IN MY TRUNK is bigger than the BABY IN MY BELLY!
My next OB visit is Tuesday so I have to start peeing my big 24 hour urine jug Monday. Which means EVERYWHERE I GO, THE JUG GOES! I just KNOW I still have protein in my urine, I can just tell. My pee has smelled funny from the beginning of this pregnancy.
I have had a sinus infection and am on antibiotics for that but feeling better. I have SO MISSED my daily allergy meds while I've been pregnant. I'm allergic to EVERYTHING and I think that is adding to my infection.
OH THE HEARTBURN!!! It is VERY PAINFUL! I will be asking my OB about it on Tuesday to see if I can take anything cause the TUMS ain't cuttin' it!
I am craving sour cream and sour cream based DIPS. Sour Cream and Onion, Sassy Salsa and just plain old Doritos dipped in sour cream-YUM!! My previous obsession with chocolate has not returned?? According to my scale, I have only gained 5 pounds since my last appointment a month ago but I feel bigger.
Overalll, I am feeling GREAT!! I still can't believe I'm pregnant. Every once in a while I feel a little flutter but I truly thought I would be feeling more by now??????
Can't wait to see my little girl again on Tuesday for reassurance! Have a good weekend all!
In 2007 I had the priviledge of being nominated by my husband for a show called Americas Favorite Mom. There were a couple hundred thousand entries and I ended up in the final 15. I got to be on the Today Show and a Mother's Day special with Donny & Marie.
During all the chaos, they sent producers out to our home to film a segment on our family to show during the Mother's Day special. They were here for several hours. One of the producers "Jim" ALSO worked on the Dr. Phil show.
Well guess who called last night????? One of the producers from the show who works for Jim. Jim follows me on Twitter and knows about our blog. After a LONG phone interview last night, I have been given the opportunity to "POSSIBLY" be on the Dr. Phil Show to talk about embryo adoption/donation.
PLEASE join me in praying that we make the right decision regarding being on the show. On one hand it is an EXCELLENT opportunity to raise awareness for embryo adoption/donation. On the other hand I'm scared to death.
I will admit, I've been in a "funk" almost like living under a DARK CLOUD since our donor family changed their minds about the embryos-lots of crying and stress.....But I CANNOT let this steal my pregnancy joy or thrill I have for my little girl right? Well, it has robbed some of my joy despite me trying SO HARD not to let it.
The day after my last post, I got my results back from my 24 hour urine-still spilling protein-abnormal and high. She said there is NOTHING I can do to change it. UGH! I feel so helpless.
I had an "episode" yesterday when I was getting the kids all ready for church. I was just doing my normal thing, running around and gathering kids and clothes and I got out of breath & felt my heart racing. My BP was high. about 140/96. She doesn't really want my diastolic (bottom number) above 90 at any time and if so, I am to call. SO.. I waited until this morning and called. She increased my BP meds to 3 times a day.
After watching The Duggar's special last night and bawling my brains out while watching Michelle suffer with pre-eclampsia...I could only think "THAT COULD BE ME!!"
The sermon in church helped me yesterday. It was on FEAR. I fear SO MUCH RIGHT NOW.
Fear for my baby's life.
Fear for MY life.
Fear of BED REST!
Fear of my child growing up with ALL that is gone on with the donor family.
I know but needed a WAKE UP CALL that this FEAR IS NOT OF THE LORD!!!!!
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6
I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Psalm 34:4
Living in fear is sin, so I will TRY MY HARDEST to get a handle on it RIGHT NOW!
My husband and I are embarking on the adventure and blessing of embryo adoption! We have never experienced pregnancy together so we are thrilled that God is leading us through this miraculous journey! I have one bio DD that is 19 & we are blessed with 6 adopted children and a fantastic life! I gave birth to our miracle adopted embryo girl on June 14, 2010!
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and WONDERFULLY MADE; your works are WONDERFUL, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. ALL the days ordained for me were written in your book BEFORE ONE OF THEM CAME TO BE!"
OUR Embryo Adoption Journey
1990-DD born no complications 2002-Married DH & with my endo we went straight to RE & found zero sperm and adopted our children
March 2009-decide to give TTC one last shot!
April 2009-DH testicular biposy
May 2009-DH azoospermia decide to move to EA
May 2009-discouraged & decided NOT to go with NEDC-can't get in til Feb 2010
May 2009-LMP start continuous BCP's
June 6, 2009-Signed up with Miracles Waiting June 15, 2009-MATHCED! In just 9 days! With our 6 embies through MW GOD IS GOOD!
June 16, 2009-Phone consult with new RE
June 20, 2009-Donors consult with our RE
June 24, 2009-Saline ultarsound-GREAT UTERUS but 2 cysts on left ovary
July 7, 2009-started bi-weekly acupuncture
July 16, 2009-LAST BCP!!!
July 17, 2009-Meds delivered
July 21, 2009-First U/S, blood work and delestrogen shot
July 28, 2009-2nd U/S looks perfect-9mm lining and trilamenar. POSSIBLE hydrosalpinx found. If hydrosalpinx-pregnancy decreases by 50%.
July 29, 2009-Up to .3 delestrogen injection.
August 4, 2009-U/S-hydrosalpinx increased in size
August 6, 2009-FETcycle cancelled until after surgery to remove left fallopian tube
August 10, 2009-surgery to remove "jacked up" fallopian tube.
September 6, 2009-AF ARRIVES! September 24-baseline u/s lab
September 25-last BCP
September 29 & October 2-.2 delestrogen
October 5-u/s lab 8mm lining estrogen 392
October 6 & 9- .25 delestrogen
October 12-u/s lab 9.2mm lining progesterone 0.2
October 16-repeat u/s 12mm lining progesterone 0.4
Oct0ber 13 & 16-delestrogen
October 17- add 1 cc progesterone injection, docycycline, medrol, baby aspirin
October 18-2cc progesterone for the duration
OCTOBER 22, 2009-FET of 1 5AAA hatching blast and 1 4AAA expanded blast.
OCTOBER 27, 2009-first beta 14! I'm PREGNANT!
EDD- July 10, 2010
November 2nd-2nd BETA 196!
November 4th-3rd BETA 331!
November 6th-4th BETA 920!!
November 16th-1st ultrasound-1 PERFECT HEART BEAT HEARD!
JUNE 14, 2010 OUR ANGEL ARRIVED 1 month early at 5lb. 15oz! WELCOME TO THE WORLD BLAKELY!
2WW: Two-week wait (the time from embryo implantation until you can take a pregnancy test) AF: Aunt Flo (your period) BCP: Birth Control Pills BFN: Big Fat Negative (test result) BFP: Big Fat Positive (test result) CD: Cycle day (what day of your cycle you are on) DH: Dear Husband EA:Embryo Adoption ED: Embryo Donor EDD: Expected Due Date (pregnancy) FET: Frozen Embryo Transfer FMU: First morning urine hCG: Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (pregnancy hormone) HPT: Home Pregnancy Test IF: Infertility IVF: In Vitro Fertilization OTD: Official Testing Day PG: Pregnant POAS: Pee On A Stick PUPO: Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise RE: Reproductive Endocrinologist TTC: Trying to conceive US: Ultrasound