Here's my 17 week belly pic!
The day after my last post, I got my results back from my 24 hour urine-still spilling protein-abnormal and high. She said there is NOTHING I can do to change it. UGH! I feel so helpless.
I had an "episode" yesterday when I was getting the kids all ready for church. I was just doing my normal thing, running around and gathering kids and clothes and I got out of breath & felt my heart racing. My BP was high. about 140/96. She doesn't really want my diastolic (bottom number) above 90 at any time and if so, I am to call. SO.. I waited until this morning and called. She increased my BP meds to 3 times a day.
After watching The Duggar's special last night and bawling my brains out while watching Michelle suffer with pre-eclampsia...I could only think "THAT COULD BE ME!!"
The sermon in church helped me yesterday. It was on FEAR. I fear SO MUCH RIGHT NOW.
Fear for my baby's life.
Fear for MY life.
Fear of BED REST!
Fear of my child growing up with ALL that is gone on with the donor family.
I know but needed a WAKE UP CALL that this FEAR IS NOT OF THE LORD!!!!!
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6
I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Psalm 34:4
Living in fear is sin, so I will TRY MY HARDEST to get a handle on it RIGHT NOW!