21 week BELLY!

21 Week Belly!

For the record :)

21 Weeks and Proteinuria...

Here's our little sweet cheeks at 20 weeks 3 days.

Hand all curled under her little chin.

They measured EVERYTHING from head to toe on our angel-even her lips! 

The verdict is-she is completely perfect and 100% on track for her age!

THEN THERE'S ME....UGH!

I have been waiting to update the blog until I knew the results of my 24 hour urine test which my Dr. assured me on Tuesday would be fine. Well, NOT SO MUCH... The amount of protein last month was 160.

When I heard my Dr's voice and not the nurses on my cell Thursday during a homeschool field trip, I knew something must not be right and immediately felt anxiety and tears set in...

She said my protein had quadrupeled to 800 and there is no explanation for it. She said she was not going to call it pre-eclampsia YET.  I immediately pictured myself on bed rest in the hospital for the next months while my 6 little ones struggles without me at home-being cared for by strangers. The thought of it makes me tear up and my BP go sky high.

She got me in with a urologist yesterday afternoon who said this to me "ARE YOU SURE YOU ARE AT THE RIGHT PLACE?, YOU SHOULD REALLY BE SEEING A NEPHROLOGIST." He said "I just don't know what to do with you, I will call a nephrologist friend of mine and let you know next week."  ALL THIS after I waited almost 2 hours to see him. AND OF COURSE, it was 5pm and my OB office is closed by now. 

SO, I called the Dr. on call and told her the situation. She just told me to chill, drink lots of water and wait until Monday on which they will promplty make an appointment for me to see a nephrologist.

ON A WONDERFUL NOTE...

God let us know that he is still in control and protecting our little girl and me by allowing my sweet husband to feel SEVERAL LARGE KICKS last night! She is an active girl, just in the last few days! I LOVE feeling her move, it's just the neatest thing EVER! Trusting HIM all the way!

"Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!"

2 Corinthians 9:15

20 WEEKS!!

I LOVE The way THE JUNK IN MY TRUNK is bigger than the BABY IN MY BELLY!

My next OB visit is Tuesday so I have to start peeing my big 24 hour urine jug Monday.  Which means EVERYWHERE I GO, THE JUG GOES! I just KNOW I still have protein in my urine, I can just tell. My pee has smelled funny from the beginning of this pregnancy.

I have had a sinus infection and am on antibiotics for that but feeling better. I have SO MISSED my daily allergy meds while I've been pregnant. I'm allergic to EVERYTHING and I think that is adding to my infection.

OH THE HEARTBURN!!! It is VERY PAINFUL! I will be asking my OB about it on Tuesday to see if I can take anything cause the TUMS ain't cuttin' it!

I am craving sour cream and sour cream based DIPS. Sour Cream and Onion, Sassy Salsa and just plain old Doritos dipped in sour cream-YUM!!  My previous obsession with chocolate has not returned??  According to my scale, I have only gained 5 pounds since my last appointment a month ago but I feel bigger.

Overalll, I am feeling GREAT!!  I still can't believe I'm pregnant. Every once in a while I feel a little flutter but I truly thought I would be feeling more by now??????

Can't wait to see my little girl again on Tuesday for reassurance!  Have a good weekend all!

I CANNOT BELIEVE I am 1/2 way to BABY!!

Show us YOUR LIFE-MINISTRY...

I am joining those at KELLY'S CORNER today in SHOW US YOUR LIFE..Ministry

I promised God that if in fact our embryo adoption "worked" I would become an advocate for embryo adoption and for the 400,000+ frozen embryos out there looking for a warm place to grow.

I pray that this ministry will grow and I can help others who LIKE ME...thought there was no hope of ever experiencing the miracle of pregnancy and child birth.

ONE PERSON CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE and I plan on being one that does!!!!!!!

Bought ME SOME of...

THESE...

Chinese Cloth Diapers.

They ended up being $4.74 each for 20 one size fits all diapers with inserts.

Total $94.99 on EBAY. 

I figure if I hate them, I'm only out $95 and if I love them-I'm saving a BOATLOAD on disposables not to mention SAVING THE PLANET!

What do YOU THINK??

Call from THE DOCTOR....

In 2007 I had the priviledge of being nominated by my husband for a show called Americas Favorite Mom.  There were a couple hundred thousand entries and I ended up in the final 15.  I got to be on the Today Show and a Mother's Day special with Donny & Marie. 

During all the chaos, they sent producers out to our home to film a segment on our family to show during the Mother's Day special.  They were here for several hours. One of the producers  "Jim" ALSO worked on the Dr. Phil show.

Well guess who called last night????? One of the producers from the show who works for Jim.  Jim follows me on Twitter and knows about our blog.  After a LONG phone interview last night, I have been given the opportunity to "POSSIBLY" be on the Dr. Phil Show to talk about embryo adoption/donation.

PLEASE join me in praying that we make the right decision regarding being on the show. On one hand it is an EXCELLENT opportunity to raise awareness for embryo adoption/donation. On the other hand I'm scared to death.

17 weeks... Blood Pressure.

Here's my 17 week belly pic!

I will admit, I've been in a "funk" almost like living under a DARK CLOUD since our donor family changed their minds about the embryos-lots of crying and stress.....But I CANNOT let this steal my pregnancy joy or thrill I have for my little girl right? Well, it has robbed some of my joy despite me trying SO HARD not to let it.

The day after my last post, I got my results back from my 24 hour urine-still spilling protein-abnormal and high. She said there is NOTHING I can do to change it. UGH! I feel so helpless.

I had an "episode" yesterday when I was getting the kids all ready for church.  I was just doing my normal thing, running around and gathering kids and clothes and I got out of breath & felt my heart racing. My BP was high. about 140/96. She doesn't really want my diastolic (bottom number) above 90 at any time and if so, I am to call. SO.. I waited until this morning and called. She increased my BP meds to 3 times a day.

After watching The Duggar's special last night and bawling my brains out while watching Michelle suffer with pre-eclampsia...I could only think "THAT COULD BE ME!!"



The sermon in church helped me yesterday.  It was on FEAR.  I fear SO MUCH RIGHT NOW.

Fear for my baby's life.

Fear for MY life.

Fear of BED REST!

Fear of my child growing up with ALL that is gone on with the donor family.

I  know but needed a WAKE UP CALL that this FEAR IS NOT OF THE LORD!!!!!

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy  31:6

I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Psalm 34:4

Living in fear is sin, so I will TRY MY HARDEST to get a handle on it RIGHT NOW!